Sunday, 11th March 2012
First Group Meeting:
"Is this my story , or what part of this is my story?"
If I'm going to sleep out for an extended period of time, then it is my story. But I'm not actually homeless. I have a home. At the moment. I'm in arrears at the moment, have been in arrears on my mortgage for over 2 years now. And I'm not currently paying my mortgage 'cos I can't afford to.
BAG - Camino School Bag: Everything I need inside it, nothing else
STICK. I dont think I will have a stick now, although I took the one John found for me home as a talisman
TORCH
MP3PLAYER
SLEEPING BAG
MAP FOR MARKING PATTERN OF MOVING
COFFEE CUP: Donations?
BLACK BAGS. (Gaffa tape?)
FLIP FLOPS
RUNNERS
Monday, 12th March 2012
Chats with Richard:
'Susan & Darren' - Darrens dance on the floor, the absence/space left where he'd slept with people
Ella Clarke? Physicality: 'Practice inviting being seen' 'What if where you are is what you need'
May Steward - Choreographer - EMOTIONAL TASKS
'Make yourself invisible' 'Practice being dead'
Question from Richard:
"How do I process that and how do I share that process after?"
Philisophical/Psychological/Political/Social/Physical/Spiritual
Processing & Presenting at the same time
Constructing a piece of performance
Tehching Hsieh NYC: Putting himself in situations outside of his usual expereince
Preparing for a Trip SAFETY
PHASE II: "Will You Sleep Rough With Me?"
Presence of the friend/family member: your life - people you've slept in the same house as/shared a bed with.
RESPOND TO: "Why are you doing this?"
The role of the artist...
Wednesday, 14th March 2012
Session with Florian
- DOCUMENTATION -
Writing a blog? Clinical? Emotional?
Surveillance Videos?
London artist who worked through surveillance videos, formed a relationship with the operators...
- Film - follow on
Try different means of documenting in Phase II
-sound, writing, diary, blog.
Architects, homeless project - street structures.
TIME
SPACE
FOOD
WEATHER
DONATION
-Donation box?
- Occupying Space: Different Spaces/occupy space.
14th March 2012
3.40pm to
BOAT HOUSE; OCCUPY SPACE # 1
IN THE BOAT, CLIMBED INTO THE BOAT HOUSE.
TIME CHANGES VERY QUICKLY. SLOWS DOWN: CALMER
SOUND AMPLIFIES: BECOMES INTENSE: ICAN IMAGINE EACH CREAK GETTING IN ON MY NERVES AFTER A WHILE
THOUGHT: COMMUNICATION? WOULD HAVE MY A PHONE FOR SAFETY BUT WHO WOULD I SPEAK TO IN BETWEEN?
LEAVING MY POSESSIONS. Keys. Wallet.Bankcard etc. Who? Where?
EVERY DAY WE WALK INTO THE UNKNOWN TOWARDS THE UNIVERSE
LISTENING
NO ONE KNOWS WHERE I AM: NO ONE KNOWS I'M HERE.
I GET COLD VERY QUICKLY
FEAR: TYPES OF FEAR: FEAR AS SAFETY: FEAR AS PASSIVITY:
FEAR AS A CONSTRUCT BASED ON 'NORMS' USUAL BEHAVIOURS & ENVIRONMENTS
LISTENING TO THE SOUL OF THE WORLD
4.37pm: 3 people: Stephen, Stephanie & Sorcha came to take the boat out. I moved to the jetty: Got onto the jetty.
Photograph by Stephen Dodd, March 2012
Fingertips get very cold.
The weight of my body on the wood
The tension in my muscles
I need to go to the toilet, do I go to the woods or back up to the house?
2 black bags and A Troch
5.28pm: Pack up and leave.
Wednesday, 14th March 2012: Jocelyn Conversation
-Witness person? Reporting: Audience Bringer?
Security Guards - 'Berlin Love Tour'
Larger point - humility
-AUTHENTICITY OF THE EXTREMITY/EXTREME PERFORMANCE
'HERE & NOW' - TITLE SHIFT.
AUTHENTICITY OF THE SPACE
EXPEREINCE
BBC Doc - Journalist, pre mobile phones in call box calling his family, "I really miss you"
IS IT BULLSHIT?
- 4.30, 5pm
UNCANNY = UNHOMED
STORY OF CHRISTOPHE.
Group Meeting: Thursday, 15th March, 2012
- 5 mins: "What has changed since the last time we met?"
Q's for other people
Title 'HERE & NOW'
OUTSIDE
MAGNITUDE
R: "When the performance period is over whether you'll respond to it in another form and what form will that be?"
H: "Do you think there is room for the poetic in your show?"
J: "What is tangible and tangible to who?"
V: "Does it have to be something you show or something that you demonstrate, glean for themselves?"
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Standby list of people who are per night contact
- Afterwards interview them about that
'Will You Sleep Rough With Me' Disposable cameras.
Catch my breath. Feeling Freaked out. Here and Now. In this second
This Microcosm of Forever and ever.
FEAR
-You only know what I tell you
they only know what you tell them
2-3-4-5-6
2-3-4-5-6.
-LET THE LANDS COME-
Thursday
I
3 hrs 17 mins before 6.30pm
Packed my bag, brought my swimsuit
Arrived at the place by the lake with the two rocks.
Some one has put a wooden hand made ladder between them & there's a feather stuck to a rung.
Sit and write and feel my heart thumping in my chest.
The Fear is on me. And I know it's irrational cos nothing is happening. The lake looks grey. I have eaten an apple and tossed the core to the right. It's biodegradable or a creature will eat it. I also have a banana, a plum, another apple from yesterday and a slice of cake too that I forgot to eat.
Is this Bullshit? I asked Jocelyn yesterday, no, and I know it's not. But that's the question I keep asking and need to keep asking to make sure. Simple enough. I know what bullshit is, I can feel it.
I have a black bag under me on the grass.
I'm thinking of swimming naked. Heard a fish splash earliere though to my left. Not that it matteres.
I'll need to be mentally ROBUST for this.
And physically. It has to start now and build from here to be even possible.
Richards question: "when the perfromance period is over whether you'll respond to it in another from and what form might that be?"
II
Is it a documentary? I would like every perfromance recorded this time.
The people on standby each night and their feeling of it.
The 'Will You Sleep Rough With Me?' Phase & photos from that maybe record the sessions/converesations/sounds of being outside. Ask Stephen about the technology of it...
Some one just cried out in the woods to my Right.
I'm aware that I still have the letter I wrote at Duncan's ritual in my back pocket. And I have heard nothing from her since Sunday night. I worry. But I wish her well. Wish them all well is all I can do. I'm powerless.
I can hear birds and cows and the vibration of cars.
And its starting to RAIN.
How will I smoke on the street?
How will I live with no money?
What will I eat?
Where will I sleep?
How will I stay warm & dry?
How will I communicate with the world from that perspective?
Will I get in the lake now?
2-3-4-5-6
2-3-4-5-6
Back is stiff
from the rock
Ass hurts.
III
-Significant Spaces
This is where I raved last year.
-SPIRITUALLY FREEFALLIN'
- EVERY DAY I WALK INTO THE UNKNOWN
TOWARDS THE UNIVERSE
My feet are in bits with the exzema.
Duck flies across the lake.
Who's space is this? Is it okay to be here? Cos I'm from Dublin? Is it really my city? Is it okay to occupy a part of it?
Everything changes - Transitional Time
Transformation Time
Is there a Resolution to be lived?
Or am I simply articulating pushing the rock up the Hill?
2-3-4-5-6.
2-3-4-5-6
Ella Clarke
"What if where I am is what I need?"
Deberah Hayes
This is Very Serious - Don't Take Yourself So Seriously.
IV
Have another smoke.
Most heat escapes through the top of your head.
Stephen said the extremities get cold, finger tips & toes becasue the body automatically protects & heats the vital organs in the middle so keeping the middle warm enough keeps the rest warm
- THIS IS A MAD THING I'M DOING-
What will I do with my phone?
-This is another Camino -
I chose not to go to the end of the world alone. I deliberately made that choice. Spiritually it was a big statement for me. I have to stand in the shit. This is a bigger SPACE TO HOLD.
Can I hold it? Well, I am holding it.
Last year the sea held the show
I think the river has this one.
Annaliviaplurabella. He threw his medal for singing in the Liffey and walked away.
- WALKING THE WORLD -
That's what's happening.
So it's alright.
IS IT? On some level. Yes.
V
Read out my letter from Duncan's Ritual out loud at the lake. Stripped off and swam naked in the lake for the first time. Screamed in the water.
Got out stood in my towel as long as I could.
Got dressed.
What do I do when I get really cold?
- WALK -
Walked around the lake.
Thought about CHECK-INS for SAFETY with the pereson on standby. Text intermittantly?
Text my location?
Had an idea about a drop in 12-8am for artists and every one awake in the city at that time at a loss.
Future project maybe? Homeless. Is there a need for sucha service? Artist & Worker. Heat. Coffee & Tea?
Documentary: How do the standby people feel about it?
'Will You Sleep Rough With Me?' Mics
FILM EVERY PERFORMANCE.
Conversation with Ruth: Friday, 16th March 2012
The Man Ran into the Tornado
Rebecca Solnit, Getting Lost
effect their body's
the threat to people's
-Pamphlet-
Philosophy -Galgael - Govan, Glasgow. Built a boat: community vessel. galgael govan
belonging
"Whatever You Want to Do, Begin It"
Booklet - widely distributed
Political Action of the work draws attention to hidden expereince.
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Richard chats:
Briefly, middle of the night thoughts record
Woke up in Annaghmakerrig with this statement :
"Either theatre is your life or your therapy, it can't be both"
Wouldnt stop repeating until I wrote it down in the Sisypus book cover - gave it to Florian
Final marking point.
Making Myself Homeless
(on Friday night I went to the lake with Shane & Caitriona and saw a shooting star.
on Saturday night a big gang of us went to the lake and I saw three shooting stars... )
(on Friday night I went to the lake with Shane & Caitriona and saw a shooting star.
on Saturday night a big gang of us went to the lake and I saw three shooting stars... )
THIS IS PHASE 1:
I'M IN IT
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